an evening reminiscent of old and happy times

I know it's a bit too late but better be late then never :) Anyway, I have to admit i'm such a procrastinator. I have so many pictures in my digital camera that I haven't uploaded them yet to my computer until few days ago. Couple of them were taken at UW's quad under the cherry blossoms. I really love UW during this time of the year. The cherry blossoms bloomed so beautifully. I think it was still in the first few days of spring, so it was pretty cold out there.


Here are some of the pictures that I took. The first picture is me with the twin buildings as my background. The one that is seen in here is the School of Art. The other one that's not seen is the School of Music. It was a really nice day when we went out there. The second picture on the right is still in the same location but different end.



This picture on the left was taken from the middle of the quad. The quad itself is a rectangle (i think so if i'm not mistaken). The road shown in here will lead to HUB (Husky Union Building aka Student Union Building). Speaking of HUB, i kind of missed that place even though the food there were so-so and expensive. There's a bookstore in there that I spent my break time (sometimes) browsing around for books, and any other small stuff. Not a bad place.... ahhh I missed UW's bagel and strawberry cream cheese and also their bluberry muffin :) I used to eat that alot during classes just to keep me awake :) Oh not to forget Italian soda :) Nice stuff there....(why am I talking about food :p).

what i wish for at this moment...

1. Vacations. a week worth of vacations would be awesome right now....no need to worry about work, getting up early, driving to work. can sleep in until noon :p i'm such a lazy person :)

2. A piano. just because I watched a piano concert few weeks ago, the urge to play one is a bit overpowering right now. I've been checking some websites for renting one, even I checked craigslist.com (be careful in spelling that website... once i wrote "craiglist.com" instead of "craigslist.com", it turned out to be a porn site... imagine my surprise hehehehe). So far i'm still thinking about the space constraint since i don't have enough space in my room and any other constraints. I'll wait for now.

3. A trip to San Francisco. I wish I had a long easter weekend but too bad none whatsoever. But.... we will get one in May for memorial day weekend. I'm thinking about a trip down to SF to visit my sister. It's kind of expensive though so maybe not. (how i wish that money isn't a big issue :D sigh that's why we have to work and save money...)

4. Go home and sleep/relax. yeah right.....i wish i could do this right now at this moment heheheheh.... *rolling my eyes oh well.... 6 more hours to go.

5. and any other stuff that i can't think of right now....

forgetting the past

So, in the end, I decided to try to say hi to my ex again. I just want to see how his reaction is towards me and from the reply; I can see that he’s still mad/angry/pissed with me. I already put my cards on the table and whether he accepted it or not, it’s up to him to decide. Oh well… at least I tried and I’m kind of glad that I did it just because I’m a bit curious how his feelings are toward me after we ended our winter/spring fling. To tell you the truth, I should’ve listened to my inner voice back then. There’s a certain part of my heart/brain that told me that we weren’t compatible enough to make it last. I should’ve stayed away from him/not going any further with the relationship. But the choices were already being made and I had to stick with my decisions even though it was a bad one. At least I hope that I can learn from my mistake and not making it again the second time.

Here’s what I wrote to him:
“hello ....how are you doing these days? Even though we already broke up, and i know it's not easy to become friends again like we used to be, I just want to say hi to you. Have a great day.”

Nothing personal in the message, just saying hi to him and whether there’s any small possibility of becoming friends again or not.

Well judging from his reply to me, I guess not:
“I know it probably took some courage to send me a message, so I will at least reply to this message. I am sorry to say this, but I don't think I can be friends with you like we used to be. There are just too many things that happened in the past for me to forget.Move on and enjoy your life, and please don't contact me again.”

Interesting isn’t it… I have to say that the reply isn’t really “soft”, it’s pretty straightforward and to the point that it’s quite mean and inconsiderate. I guess break up can change people. If you know him, you probably won’t know that he can utter such words to others. He is honest that’s for sure…or crude? I don’t know and I don’t really care either. Another words that he wrote also saying that he still can’t forget what happened in the past that made him very disappointed and pissing him off, and that holds him back from maintaining any sort of relationship with me again, be it friend or more. Apparently he wants to forget about the past and probably in his opinion, by not contacting me is the fastest way to forget. I do agree with him on looking forward but on trying to forget about the past and not looking back? I don’t think I agree wholeheartedly with that. There will be a time where you have to pause and take a look back before you make choices/decisions. We definitely don’t want to repeat our own mistakes again, right? And the only way to do it may require us to step back and take a look at what we’ve done in the past.

just a thought

Just a thought that came to me when i was working (daydreaming? :p) ...
if you broke up with someone and then he/she decided to delete all your contact numbers, emails, friendsters, and any other stuff to forget about you, in couple months/years later should you say "hi" to him/her again just as friend? Well ok.... i broke up with my ex almost a year ago and when we did, he decided to erase everything about me like email address, friendster, msn messenger (that's so far that i know. I am not sure whether he deleted pictures and all that personal stuff... maybe he did). So my question is that... should I send him an invitation for friendster again or drop him email and just say hi to him again or should I just move on and close that part of my life? what happens if we met again somewhere someday? should I ignore him or just say hi and bye? Well... i don't know :) The thought of that already cross my mind couple times but so far no action ever taken yet..... just wait and see.

ok lunch time :D gotta go and eat..

another test

Animated Inventor

Interesting test. Some of them are quite true but I think there's some other parts that aren't. Well for you people that know me, feel free to give me any comments on my result. hmmmm just for precautioni, here's the link if that thing doesn't pop up.